While it was the best for her and really the only option it was still a very hard decision to make. I stayed with her to the end and her ashes will remain with me. Just now it's noticing the spaces caused by her not being here. The small space in the kitchen where her food and water bowls used to be,the space in the living room where she'd lay curled up asleep on her blanket and the spaces in the day that were dog walking time. Whether I will get another dog remains to be seen I have said not but you can never say never but I think if I do it will have to be an older rescue dog as I doubt I'll see another puppy out.
We have agonised over whether to have another or not. Downside was he was very limiting as he went everywhere with us. Living in a very hot country meant you had to be very very careful leaving him in the car while you nipped into the bank. Choice of hotels and holidays was more limited. We also wondered if we could walk a dog in ten years time given our knees, hips and so on.We do miss the many upsides.
We have “ adopted” a farm dog. These are not covered by recently introduced Spanish laws on pets which have improved their well being immensely. Someone about three miles away has a small holding without a house and has umpteen dogs chained up all over the property. There is a cream coloured mastif near the entry and we try and improve its well being.
Its water bowl was a five gallon plastic container with side cut off. It was filthy. We took it away and cleaned it up and left a new washing up bowl in its place till we got it back. We take it dry and sometimes tinned dog food. Its shelter was an old 1 metre cube plastic container with side cut out but it kept getting blown away so was out of reach . It now has a different container that it can use. One day we went ( we go when he is having his siesta back home or in the evening) and got a real shock. We thought it was dead but it was the hind quarter of a dead sheep the owner had left for the dog to eat. I am afraid to say that farm dogs and hunting dogs lead miserable and very short lives. Sadly most country folk believe this is quite acceptable.