Thanks again all of you. Left on thursday & just got back. She's got worse every day i've been there. I want her to go to sleep forever now & it'll be a relief when she does, she wants to as well, it's no life for her. Dad's a vet & animals are spared this mercy, she ran the ship & is now bed bound in pain & feeling constantly sick with no hope of recovery. What kind of humanity/dignity is that?.
Dad broke this afternoon before i left saying he should've gone first. Seeing him go i lost it as well & all i could say was this way he's saving her the heartbreak of grieving for him. There's been tears, hugs & still a few laughs in the family. Friends & neighbours have been fantastic down there & up here as have work...not to forget you lot!!!

If anyone wants a lump in the throat i could do with a break!!! I'll shut up now & thanks again all of you, Guy.