Today/yesterday @1700hrs. Once the nurses had prepared her my grown up son Scott went in again to say goodbye to his Grandma & Dad was understandably mortified. I wated drinking in the garden until the undertakers took her outside where she'd wanted to be for weeks, kissed her goodbye & told her i'd never stop loving or missing her. I forced myself to watch her getting covered up & taken away, she bought me into this world so i had to see her off.
I've never felt so terrible, it's undescribable but all i could do for her. All the sisters/nieces & nephews are staying across the lane tonight which leaves my lad,myself, the old boy & a confused black lab crying & laughing. This is well rough & just wrong but at least she's at peace now
I'm not posting this on my MX5/Cortina forums or f/book but i've known you lot long enough not to mind.
To those of you who've shared similar losses on here i know how you feel now..who said biglads don't cry?
